Small Goals

No word today about the MRI, but I figured it'd be another day or so before I'll get a call. I truly hope that call comes sooner rather than later. This pain is close to sending me over the edge. While the new nerve blocking pain meds do work, they only do so much. I still have a lot of pain in my knee and shin, and anything that touches the skin in this area sends me into orbit. This evening I have a new pain in my lower shin area, close to my ankle. It's just throbbing. 

I was able to walk around the block twice today, so there's that. The first time, when I got back and sank into my chair it was like I had worked out hard. I was done. The second time, my hip started talking to me big time and it was all I could do to finish the walk. A month ago I was walking 3-5 miles a day. Now I'm reduced to a block. I am so bummed. I'm really trying to stay positive, but I don't know how when I can't do much of anything and the pain is just always there.

Each morning I've been sitting out back with the boys after they've had their breakfast. The mornings have been beautiful. Cool. A slight breeze. The deer showed up at the far side of the field a couple of mornings. Two red belly woodpeckers have been fighting over the maple tree. A chubby opossum walked across my neighbor's yard and disappeared under her shed. I probably should tell her she has a guest living under that shed, but I'd hate for anything to happen to the opossum. My neighbor isn't all that accommodating, if you know what I mean.

While I do enjoy the time sitting out back with the boys, I'm ready to get back to my usual activities. A month of sitting, of watching the world go on -- I don't know how much more I can tolerate. I did spend some time doing some recommended physical therapy exercises yesterday, hoping every little thing I do helps speed up the healing process. I also bought a swimsuit, and when it arrives I'm going to begin swimming as I think that might help with the healing. If nothing else, it'll get me out of the house, give me something to look forward to. I haven't tried to drive yet, but I think I can make it to the pool without any trouble.

Today I'm going to try to plant some flower seeds. And I have a couple of houseplants that are in dire need of re-potting. They are in pitiful shape. A month ago I had big goals, big plans for this spring. For now I'm settling for small goals. 




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