Standing at the Trailhead of Winter

I am anxiously awaiting the wallpaper I ordered for my dining room. I decided to do one wall to see if I like it, but I've always been pretty good at envisioning what something will look like, and I believe the wallpaper I ordered will look lovely. If not? I'll peel it off and keep searching for the wallpaper that will ultimately work. The last couple of days I've been going through the house and collecting anything that has run its course for me. A blue wooden rooster with part of its beak missing. A sailboat I bought years ago while on vacation in Michigan. Books I've read and won't read again. Pictures I've had on the walls for years that no longer move me. My hope is someone else will enjoy these little things as much as I have through the years. I've not gotten much gardening done so far this summer. A few pots of petunias and a small area of nasturtium is about it. I finally blocked off the garden closest to the garage to keep Sunny out. He's a dig...

Hello June! You've graced us with a beautiful day. My garden is coming to life, with lettuce, spinach, peas and herbs coming in nicely. I still need to get some flowers in, like cosmos and zinnias. It seems so late at this point, but I'm going to get some seeds planted and let nature take its course. I've always started seeds in the greenhouse in March, but this year that didn't happen. If nothing else, it'll be interesting to see how the flowers do without the headstart. The herniated disc seems to be healing, slowly but surely. At this point, the only part of my leg that is still not back to normal is the area right below the knee. It's just a small spot. It's numb and at times feels like sandpaper is scraping across it. Other times there are pin prick sensations. It's all very strange. Yesterday my knee was very sore and twinging with pain most of the day. Today, the soreness and pain are gone. I'm wondering if this is happening as the herniation ...

The yellow climbing roses are putting on a show and it's so beautiful. I can't walk past them whenever I'm outside. I have to stop, inhale their fragrance and tell them how lovely they are. 

I'm learning some days there will be less pain in my leg and other days there will be more pain in my leg. It's kind of like a crap shoot. Although, I am realizing the nights I don't sleep well do have a negative effect on me the following day. Last night I didn't sleep, and today I feel like I'm right back in the first weeks of this herniated disc. It sucks. I've tried not to go down the rabbit holes about herniated discs, but it's hard. I want to know as much as possible about what it is and what can help to heal it. Unfortunately, there's not much that can be done to help it heal other than time, and from what I'm finding, time sometimes doesn't make any difference, which is scary to think about. There are moments I'm scared that this is my new normal for the rest of my life. I truly hope it's not. I am able to get out and mow the lawn. It takes me two or three days to do the whole yard, but I'm okay with that. It's not like I ...

Cautiously optimistic, but I think things are improving. Today has been really, really good. I'm still experiencing pain in my knee and shin, but that pain has lessened with each passing day this week. Today I was able to put more pressure on my knee without it giving out on me. That alone is such a relief. Last week when I was told my activity is only limited by the amount of pain I can tolerate, I envisioned the rest of my life revolving around constant pain and weakness in my right leg. After not being given any advice for how to manage the pain or how to work to alleviate the pain, I did a lot of reading over the next few days to see what might actually help. I firmly believe a good night's sleep is key, so I found a highly rated OTC sleep aid and started using it. While I still wake up during the night and experience significant pain in my hip during the night, I shift my sleeping position to alleviate the pain and fall back to sleep quickly. That alone has worked wonders....

I finally got the results from the MRI. While it wasn't what I wanted to hear, at least I know what I'm dealing with and can now make decisions regarding activity, rest, medication. This whole ordeal has really opened my eyes to our healthcare system. My past experiences have been few and far between, mostly just having kids and going through the usual kid illnesses. I've not had to use the healthcare services other than regular physicals, regular eye checks, and regular dental check-ups. My thoughts have always been work to take care of myself by being active and watching what I eat. I stopped drinking alcohol several years ago, but I was not much of a drinker to begin with. I never really liked the taste of alcohol, so what was the point of drinking? I've never smoked. I've never taken drugs. I thought I was doing everything I needed to do to remain healthy. Then one morning in March I woke up to a nagging, sharp pain in my right thigh. I didn't think too much...