A Different Kind of Christmas

Quiet. Just me and the boys.

Overcast. Not cold. Just gray and blah. Won't be able to see the smiley face moon tonight.

I made a lentil loaf but forgot to add in the breadcrumbs, so it turned out too soft and was more like a hash. Thankfully the flavor was there. It wasn't a complete loss. The mashed potatoes were yummy.

Baked my favorite cookies. Gingerbread. Sat on the front porch and enjoyed coffee with gingerbread cookies. Sunny spent the entire time sniffing every inch of the porch, eating stink bugs. 

Thoughts of past Christmases, when the kids were little, came and went all day. I miss having the kids here. I don't miss the frantic figuring out gifts. 

I wish I had spent more time creating traditions that were ours and no one else's. I hope my kids create traditions.

Went on a long walk with Sunny. He's eight months old today. Too big now to fit under the old dresser or weave through the chairs at the dining room table when playing chase through the house with Teddie and Murphy. 

Bingeing Heartland episodes. The horses are beautiful. Kinda makes me want to find a stable and go riding. It's only been nearly 40 years since I last sat on a horse. It's like riding a bike, right?

Today. Christmas 2025.

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