Standing at the Trailhead of Winter

The sprint tri has come and gone, and what a learning experience it was. All morning the adrenaline pumped. By the time I jumped into the pool, I was a mess. I started out okay, but after the first two laps, I had caught up to three people in front of me. I couldn't go around them with people on the other side of lanes coming at me. I became so frustrated and discouraged, angry at myself for not having the guts to find a way to get around them. I truly think I could have finished faster if I had. I did finish at the ten minute mark, so I'm happy with this since it was my first tri, but I know I can do even better. The bike was difficult. Pouring rain soaked me through almost as soon as I started out. Going east was good since the wind was blowing out of the west, but once I made the turn to head back, the easy going became a chore. I tried to make a strong finish once I had the straightaway, and I did pass some people who had taken off before me, so that was encouraging. The ru...

since my last post. Actually, I've been toying with the idea of deleting the blog. Doing so would mean one less thing I have to feel guilty about not working on. Over the last two years or so, I have been trying to live by the "enoughness" rule--having just enough in my life to not feel pressured, to not feel like a failure for not completing whatever may be on the plate at any given time, and to not interfere with family time. Enoughness also reflects my desire to be happy with less all the way around. I don't need the designer clothes anymore, the bigger house where I have a room to call my studio, or the vacations every summer. I'm happy with what I have. That said, when I actually began writing this post, I decided to continue with it. I have some ideas for what I can use the blog for, and I'll see how it goes for awhile. And with that said, I'm going to begin now, actually tomorrow, with my attempt at my first sprint tri. I've been training since...